So Anxious: Taking the Reins of My Anxiety or Whatever

August 1, 2017 6 Comments

It’s the first of the month and I’m here good people.  I’ve been gone for a minute, now I’m back with the jump off (that Lil’ Kim song still rocks).

I went to sleep last night with a list of things on my to-do list left unchecked (yet again) and it left me with nothing but frantic, uneasy thoughts. With that, I was immediately provoked to take a step back from the list and call it a night. This morning I was granted the opportunity to wake up and start fresh. While brushing my teeth, the thought process of “newness” provoked me to make my way over to my laptop and create.

Here’s a note to self, if you will.

Lately, you’ve been on edge. Lately, you have felt mentally overwhelmed and stuck. You have tried to create a plethora of deadlines but the list never seems to end. You’re drowning and realizing that your innermost feelings are making you counterproductive, to say the least. But today is a new day and it’s time to take control. 

Know when to take a break. 

In other words, breathe- damn! I mean, breathing you do well. But you have yet to learn when to press the pause button and regroup. Really take the time to incorporate self-care back into your daily regimen, because girl you have fallen off. Take some time to meditate and recenter your mind. Go explore the city for an hour. Take a singing break and jam out to Bey if needed. When the mind is in a good space, it is often easier to tackle more tasks. But you can’t effectively complete anything without being okay with stepping away sometimes. 

Stop Deflecting.

Note that there is a difference between stepping away and simply avoiding. You don’t want to push things so far to the back of your mind that they actually chill for months in your space like unwanted guests. I mean, that actually does more harm than good and adds stress! You’re deflecting due to fear and uncertainty, but there is still life to live. Take a leap of faith and just go for it. 

Be okay with imperfection. 

You love knowing what’s next. You love planning out life so meticulously to the extent that when things don’t work out the way you intended or thought they should, you lose your mind. You’re your toughest critic. I can tell. Plan ahead but be okay with the edits life may bring. The beauty of life is truly all the things we never expected coming together to create magic. 

In my writing to myself, I am writing to you. Whether we want to admit it or not, we all experience anxious feelings from time to time. Some more than others. While these feelings can come at the most inconvenient of times, it is okay to experience those feelings. But hey, don’t get stuck in them. I challenge you to take control this time around and let August be the month that your anxiety didn’t get the best of you. Twist the negative tense emotions into motivational energy to make the things you have sought after becoming reality. Feel what you feel. But bounce back!

Being less tense is,



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    Joyce P.

    August 2, 2017

    Amen to this! 🙌🏾 & shoutout to the creative struggle. May we overcome it one step at a time 👊🏾💢

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      August 10, 2017

      yes we shall overcome someday! thank you for reading lol

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    Felicia B.

    August 6, 2017

    So glad that I had the opportunity to read this before tackling a new school year… taking the time to breathe, and taking it a day at a time. Love this Ki!

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      August 10, 2017

      thanks! wishing you nothing but stress-free environments all month long to kick off your year!

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    Shan'T-Erica Pugh

    August 9, 2017

    This just helped me gather my mindset for my first last day of high school 🙏🏽 LOVE IT

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      August 10, 2017

      so glad I could help! Remember you can do anything you put your mind to. just breathe!